Please God, give me the strength to not ask you to stop working on me through this pain. I just want to cry out for relief but I am changing, I am caring…I hurt and cry and I see so much more now. I see the needy where once I just walked by, I pray for the lost and suffering and my heart hurts for them. Before this pain I really didn’t give it much thought. I want to be a new creation in Christ and You are working on me through my pain. I don’t want to wimp out and plead to you for relief  my Father, if I am not truly changed into a man after your heart. I am tired of the daily grind and pretending to be a Christian, I want the real thing and I need you in my life more than any of the blessings you have given me. Search my heart oh holy Father and cull the worldly from me. I need more of you Lord!